10/30/2007

Naisip ko lang noon

Lahat tayo nais kumawala sa kahon. Ngunit tayo mismo ang kahon.

Ang Pagiging Babae

Nasa playlist sa ibaba ang kanta. Siguro masyado pang maaga para sa Women's Day (na sa March 8 nagaganap) i-post ang lyrics ng kantang ito, ngunit kung tutuusin, mas kailangan ang mga tulad ng kantang ito sa pang-araw-araw nating pamumuhay. Dahil ang pinaka-mahirap at pinaka-malaking tunggalian ay nagaganap sa pang-araw-araw nating pamumuhay.

Para sa mga babaeng nagbabasa nito ang post na ito. :)

Ang pagiging babae sa lipunang malupit
Ay puno ng hirap at sakit
Ang pagsasalita ay pag-aanyaya
Sa dahas na laging nakaamba
Hinagpis ay hindi maipakita

Ang babae at bayan ay laging nagdurusa
Sa bangis ng pagsasamantala
Sa malalim na sugat ng pandarahas
Ay buhay ang katarungang hangad
Na ang maapi ay hindi na muli

Ang paghuhulagpos ay mayroong panahon
Ang panahon na iyon ay ngayon
Kasama ng bayan na magpupunyagi
Ang babae sa paglayang mithi

Ang pagiging babae ay pagiging mulat
Sa hindi pantay na pagtingin
Ang hindi pagkibo ay pag-aanyaya
Sa higit pang dahas at banta
Lakas natin ay ipakita

Ang paghuhulagpos ay mayroong panahon
Ang panahon na iyon ay ngayon
Kasama ng bayan na magpupunyagi
Ang babae sa paglayang mithi
Ang babae sa paglayang mithi

10/29/2007

Sulit?

Sale kahapon sa Riverbanks Mall Marikina. At dahil sale, naisip ng nanay ko bilhan ako ng sapatos. May mga sapatos kasi na kinaltasan ng 50% ang regular na presyo nila. Meron nga mas malaki ang kaltas. Yung binili na sapatos para sa akin, P799 na lang ang binayaran. Kung walang sale, mga P2,300 ang halaga ng sapatos na iyon.

Nababagabag ako. Pakiramdam ko luho ang pagbibili ng bagong sapatos. Marami naman kasi ako sapin sa paa. Yun nga lang, madalas ako mag-tsinelas dahil masikip na ang mga sapatos ko.

Ang tingin ko sa pagbili ng bagong sapatos (para sa akin) ay luho pa rin, kahit na lagpas kalahati ang ibinagsak ng presyo. Ganito kasi ang iniisip ko: ano nga ba ang tunay na presyo ng sapatos?

Magkano lang ba talaga ang ginastos ng kapitalista sa sapatos na binebenta niya? Sa P2,300 na orihinal na presyo ng sapatos, magkano ba dun ang talagang ginastos niya? At magkano dun ang kita na niya?

Hindi ba tayo inuutakan lang, pinalalabas na mura na ang sapatos na halagang P799? Malay ba natin kung P300 lang pala ang halaga ng sapatos na yun, kung bibilangin lang ang ginastos ng kapitalista run, at hindi isasama ang pagkalaki-laking tubo niya.

Medyo malabo pa ang iniisip ko, wala akong hard data. At naisip ko ito habang nag-iikot sa mall. Ngunit ito ang nananatiling palaisipan para sa akin: sulit pa rin ba kapag sale?

10/28/2007

A short history lesson

A few years ago, I was kicked out of the Ateneo de Manila University. My grade point average did not reach the required mark for me to be able to continue my second year in the Ateneo. So I had to look for another school. (If I had wanted to, I could have returned after a year. But that's another story.)

My parents wanted to send me to Ateneo de Naga University. Yes, the one in Bicol. My brother (eight years my senior) was completing his senior year there, so my parents thought it was the perfect arrangement.

Of course I did not want to go. I didn't know anyone there, except for my brother (with whom I had an issue). And it's another Ateneo school, for crying out loud. Of course I was adamant on not going.

What did I have against Ateneo? When I was a high school senior, the only school I was keen on entering was UP (kahit anong campus, basta UP). I loathed Ateneo because I did not like the attitude of most of the high school graduates it produced (including my older brother). Of course, it was unjust of me to form such generalizations, but for an high school senior about to enter the unfamiliar world of college (no uniforms, co-ed classes, public transportation), I think at that time, generalizations were all I had.

Unfortunately, my mother was hell-bent on me attending another private school for college. She did not want me to attend UP, because according to her, "baka maging aktibista ka lang o mamundok ka na." So after countless arguments, tears, and threats, I entered Ateneo with much misgivings.

Even then, I am able to say that I am not a typical freshman. Even in high school, I already had the impression that our teachers were not teaching us the important stuff, that they were hiding something from us. And that what they were teaching were irrelevant to our lives. So when I entered college, I had already decided that I wanted to seek education outside the classroom too.

This became a problem during the latter part of my freshman year in the Ateneo. I no longer found many of my subjects relevant. I was engaged in something more relevant, more important, more urgent--- the student publication. Here, I found answers to my questions, and then some: It offered an alternative solution. Society does not have to be this way. It could be better.

And so my grade point average went down. And I had to look for another school. And my parents wanted to send me to Naga. Which I was strongly against. So I stayed.

Back then, I feared that the movement I found in Ateneo de Manila is not present in Ateneo de Naga. I feared that I'd go astray. Again.

But now, after Lunduyan in Naga, I keep thinking if I made the right decision. It seems that my apprehension was unfounded. In fact, if I had gone to Naga, I may have been a better person.

And now, I miss the place I almost spent my college life in. Some of the songs I first learned here in Manila I also heard there. And now, when I hear these songs, I'm reminded only of Naga. I'm reminded of lost opportunities. I'm reminded of the people I could have worked with for years. I'm reminded of a possibly better Trina.

Maybe I'll just take comfort in the possibility that in a parallel universe, another Trina is living out this life. She had known Cris Hugo, could have been her classmate. She is trekking the rice fields every month, for her basic masses integration. She speaks Bicol like a local, and her skin color has gone several shades darker. She now looks like the masses she has vowed to serve.

10/14/2007

Lunduyan na!

Off to Naga later. I'll be out of the metro for one whole week. Will probably post an entry when I come back. Probably.

Bye!