6/29/2007

Does this make sense?

The more I am immersed in the world I am compelled to be part of, the more I feel I am isolating some people who really matter.

It's not as if I'm (or they're) doing it on purpose. I've just noticed (okay, so I've often noticed in the past, but I kept on ignoring it) that now, we have different lifestyles, dreams, friends, viewpoints, priorities, principles, attitudes, and most especially, politics.

Differences in politics used to not matter. But now, we are so different, I don't know how we'll be able to fill the chasm between us.

I feel like I'm leaving them for the cause. But I can't and will not choose between them or the movement. Because I am fighting because of them, for them. I chose to fight in the first place because of people like them. Sila ang una kong kinilalang masa.

Sometimes, there's nothing you can do.

6/27/2007

Rosas ng Digma

Sumibol sa isang panahong marahas
Bawat pagsubok ay iyong hinarap
At hangga’t laya’y di pa nakakamtan
Buhay mo’y laging laan

Namumukadkad at puno ng sigla
Tulad mo’y rosas sa hardin ng digma
At di maiwasan sa iyo ay humanga
Ang tulad kong mandirigma

Ako’y nangangarap na ika’y makasama
Taglay ang pangakong iingatan kita
Ang gandang mong nahubog sa piling ng masa
Hinding-hindi kukupas, di malalanta

Ang kulay mong angkin, singtingkad ng dugo
Nagbibigay-buhay sa bawat puso
Tinik mo’y sagisag ng tapang at giting
Sa laranga’y kislap ng bituin

Ako’y nangangarap na ika’y makasama
Taglay ang pangakong iingatan kita
Ang gandang mong nahubog sa piling ng masa
Hinding-hindi kukupas, di malalanta

Ako’y nangangarap na ika’y makasama
Taglay ang pangakong iingatan kita
Ang gandang mong nahubog sa piling ng masa
Hinding-hindi kukupas, di malalanta

Gaya ng pag-ibig na alay ko, sinta


*Ayan na Mahal ha? May lyrics na tayo. Makukumpleto na natin ang pag-kanta sa awit na ito pagbalik mo galing Singapore. ;p

playlist playlist playlist!

'Wag pong magulat kapag may bigla kang marinig na kanta, dahil may playlist na rin ako. Oo. At mahal ko ang aking playlist. Bow.

Kung hindi mo mahal ang aking playlist, ganun talaga. Nasa ilalim siya ng posts ko. Gamitin ang pause button upang tumigil ang pagtugtog ng kanta.

Punta kayo dito!

















Ito ang Bound Bookstore (obviously). Daming libro rito na magaganda (usually in good condition pa), at karamihan, mura (dahil second-hand). Lahat ng bago kong libro, dito galing.

Hindi lang libro itinitinda rito. May mga bag din, atbp.

Tsaka nakikita niyo yung aircon unit sa likod nung sign? Diyan ang opis namin. Haha.

105-A Scout Castor street, Tomas Morato, Baranggay Laging Handa ang address ng Bound. Tara!

Naaalala niyo pa ba ito?

thought for the day

Nasaan ang toreng garing kung walang manggagawang gumawa nito?

6/26/2007

Sarimanok no more!

Actually, test lang ito. Tinitignan ko pa lang kung okay itong bagong itsura. Letse kasi ang Dreamweaver dito, hindi ko ma-manipulate yung layers sa lay-out ko to my heart's content.

Ayan sa itaas ang header na tinutukoy ko sa nakaraang post. Apparently, hindi supported ng Blogspot ang animated GIFs. Oh well.

Yan na muna. Over and out!

bagong header--- sana











Ginawa ko kanina. Naisip ko lang gawin siyang header--- kung sipagin akong gawan siya ng isang buong lay-out.

6/25/2007

emo na naman si Trina

Kung ang problema ko lang ay puyat, e di sana natulog na ako four hours ago.


Kaso, hindi e.

6/24/2007

belated










































Kung ang diyos mo matigas ang puso, ang diyos ko mapagbigay.

Kung ang diyos mo kailangan pang dasalan para magbigay, ang diyos ko nagbibigay ng kusa.

Kung ang diyos mo ay may altar at nasa pedestal, ang diyos ko totoo.

6/21/2007

walang pamagat

*sa PUP


Kailan ko kaya masisilayan ang kalayaan?




* sa NUJP


Sana, makita ko ito bago ako tumungo sa ibang tanawin.




*sa bahay

Bago ko lisanin ang daigdig na ito



*sa PUP, sa terrace ng Cata opis


Sana makaalis ako bago makulong dito



*sa may Anonas


Bago ako maaliw at mahalina ng mga bagay




*PUP muli, sa SDC


Malayo at matarik ang biyahe ko. Sana matatag ako.

6/18/2007

Leaving


*salamat, Padj, sa pagiging modelo


I sometimes feel like I'm just counting the days 'til I leave. Like I'm going someplace else, and this is just some interim.

I want to fly away. To leave. I want to look for kalayaan.

6/09/2007

Buntot ng demonyo

At kung ako ay naninirahan sa lipunan na mga demonyo ang namumuno, malaya ba ako?

E ang bansa ng lipunang ito, malaya rin ba?

Araw ng Kalayaan? Ulol.

demonyo

"V. Inuwi kang nakakahon

Binaboy ka muna bago ka pinatay. Isang basong seminilya ng mga demonyong army ang nakuha sa puwerta mo. Ang buong katawan mo'y tadtad ng paso ng sigarilyo. Ang puwit mo'y pinasakan ng batuta. Ang sabi sa report nila'y encounter daw. Pero hindi kami naniniwala. Ang butas sa mata mo'y tanda ng baril na pinaputok nang malapitan. Gayunpaman, namatay kang nagtatagis ang mga bagang. Hindi ka sumuko. Tiniis mo ang lahat ng pahirap. " -sipi mula sa Responde na isinulat ni Norman Wilwayco (astig 'to!)


Wala akong kilalang ganito ang kinahatnan. Hindi ko alam kung may taong nga na dumanas ng ganitong klaseng pahirap (hindi naman kasi kami magkakilala nung nagsulat). Ngunit alam ko hindi lang ito ang ang kwento ng mga nahuhuli, NPA man o hindi:

Binaril close-range, kaya kalahati na lamang ng ulo niya ang natitira.

Hubad na bangkay, walang isang saplot na natira.

Hinihiritan ng mga demonyong lasing na "Masarap yan tikman, maganda!"

Pinagsasayaw ng malaswang sayaw ng mga demonyo.

Nawala na lang na parang bula.


Hindi tao ang gumagawa nito. Putangina, hindi sila tao. Paano magagawa ito ng isang tao sa kapwa niya tao? Ang mansamantala, mang-abuso, at patayin pati ang dangal? Nagkukunwari lang silang tao. Mga demonyo sila.

Paano ko nasisikmura na mabuhay sa lipunan na kung saan, mga demonyo ang naghahari?

Kagabi

Natatakot ako.

Putangina ng mag-sabi na hindi ako natatakot.

'Tangina, natatakot ako.


Ngunit pinagninilay-nilayan ko pa rin ang pagtuloy.

Kahit na baka hindi na ako maka-uwi.

Kahit na maka-uwi man ako, baka nasa kabaong na.

Kahit na baka hindi na ako mamukhaan pag-uwi ko.

Kahit na babuyin man ako ng mga putanginang demonyo na nagkukunwaring tao.

Kahit na hindi ako mabigyan ng marangal na libing.

Kahit na hindi pa ako tumatapak ng trenta anyos.


Pinagninilay-nilayan ko pa rin ang pagtuloy. Pero 'tangina, natatakot ako.

6/08/2007

Anak ng Bayan

"Inay, itay ako po ay lilisan
Patutunguhan ko ay isang digmaan
Mag-aalay ako ng panahon at buhay
Para sa kalayaan..." -Anak ng Bayan

How do you tell your parents that you are going to a place they specifically told you never, ever to visit? How do you tell them that the reason you're going there is because you are now the person they have always forbidden you to be?

How do you tell them that the bourgeios education they gave you was not enough? That it was never enough? That all the years spent in private, Catholic (and expensive) institutions did not deter you from pursuing this path? That it, in fact, urged you more to act for change? That instead of shielding you from harrowing experiences (as they thought these schools would do), it instead exposed you to injustice and oppression?

My answer? You don't. At least, not yet.

I'll bide my time.

Books and People

I like books better. They're easier to manage.

6/05/2007

Call Of Support

The Free Jonas Burgos Movement (FJBM) calls on all our colleagues in the art and writers circle to manifest their support in our call to the AFP, PNP and the GMA government to double their effort in locating Jonas Joseph Burgos, son of late press freedom icon Jose Burgos, who was forcefully abducted last April 28, 2007 at the Ever Gotesco Commonwealth in Quezon City.


We are humbly soliciting your signatures in support of our call to surface Jonas and all desaparecidos and demand justice for all the victims of human rights violations of the current and previous government in our country.

We are hopeful that we would be in unison in this call. Every name counts. You count.
Please send your name at freejonasburgosmovement@yahoo.com. for more information call 4546468

Free Jonas Burgos. Free all Desaparecidos.

Let Us Keep Vigil and Tear the Curtain of Darkness
Unity Statement of Writers, Artists and Journalists
We are writers, artists and journalists. Our work thrives on the freedom of expression and of the press – which is among the foundations of any democracy.
History shows that the curtailment of freedom of expression and of the press is among the first steps taken by would-be dictators. It is no small wonder then that writers, artists and journalists have historically been among the fiercest opponents of authoritarianism.
On Feb. 25, 1986 , the late dictator Ferdinand Marcos was ousted after three days of what has come to be known as the EDSA I uprising.
The struggle against the dictatorship, however, was not just three days. EDSA I was the culmination of more than a decade of anti-dictatorship struggle by the Filipino people, which took several forms at various times.
Among the key figures in the fight against the Marcos dictatorship were many of our fellow writers, artists and journalists – the likes of Romulo “Mulong” Sandoval, Lino Brocka, and Armando Malay to name just a few.
At this point in our country’s often-turbulent history, we are compelled to revisit the struggle for democracy waged by those who came before us, because the gains of that battle – which greatly benefited us – are now under attack.
This manifests, among other things, in the April 28, 2007 abduction of Jonas Joseph Burgos – son of the late press freedom hero Jose “Joe” Burgos, Jr. – in Quezon City by armed men. He was snatched while having lunch at Hapag Kainan Restaurant at Ever Gotesco-Commonwealth and dragged into a van with plate number TAB 194. He has not been seen since then.
Jonas is an agriculturist who teaches organic farming methods to peasants in Bulacan. The van with plate number TAB 194 had been impounded for some time at the headquarters of the Philippine Army’s 56th Infantry Battalion – which is based in Norzagaray, Bulacan – after being confiscated by the Department of Environment and Natural Resources (DENR) in anti-logging operations.
Jonas is not the first to fall victim to enforced disappearances. With 199 victims having been documented since 2001, he is the 16th victim this year alone.
The enforced disappearances are taking place alongside extra-judicial killings, now numbering more than 800 since 2001.
The victims were known in their communities as government critics. A good number were confirmed to have been active in cause-oriented groups, while the rest were not affiliated with any political organization. In several of the cases, state forces have been identified as the perpetrators.
The recent passage of an Anti-Terrorism Bill that defines terrorism so vaguely that even publishing or producing works with the slightest criticism of the government may be construed as a “terorristic” act should concern all who value the freedom of expression and of the press.
We are indeed at a dark chapter in our country’s history. We urge our fellow writers, artists and journalists to join us in keeping vigil and tearing the curtain of darkness in this night of our people.
SIGNATORIES

AM. Ociones
Abet Umil
Aida Santos
Aisel Comia
Alex Baluyut
Alex Remollino
Alex T. Magno
Angeli Bayani
Angie Collás-Dean
Anna Isabelle Matutina
Anna Perez
Annette Ortiz
Archie Nava
Ares P. Gutierrez
Arnold M. Azurin
Arwin Nava
Atty. Joel Ruiz Butuyan
Ava Fuertes Danlog
Babes Alejo
Bayang Barrios
Bernadette Uy
Bienvenido Lumbera
Boy Dominguez
Carol Claudio
Chikoy Pura
Claude Claridad
Con Cabrera
Consie Lozano
Cooky Chua
Cynthia Shirley
Darby E. Santiago, MD
Darlene Menese
D-jay Lazaro
Ed Manalo
Elmer A. Ordonez
Emil Mercado
Gelacio Guillermo
Gil Casia Rustum
Gil Nartea
Herbert Docena
Hilarion "Larry" M. Henares Jr.
Imelda M. Aznar
Ina Silverio
James Andrew Panahon Obejas
Janie Christine F. Octia
Jeff Carnay
Jeho Bitancor
Jennifer Anne Mendoza
Jes Aznar
Jess Santiago
Jewel Maranan
Jimmy Domingo
Joel Saracho
Jojo Sescon
Jona Cham
Jonathan L Cellona.
Jonathan Ronquillo
Jonna Baldres
Jose F. Lacaba
Joseph Purugganan
JPaul Manzanilla
Julie L. Po
Jun Cruz Reyes
K Lopez
Karl Fredrick M. Castro
Kathy Tiongson
Kenneth Roland A. Guda
Lady Ann Salem
Leonard D. Reyes
Lina Adam
Lourd de Veyra
Ma. Theresa Pagdanganan
Malyn Molina
Mandia Joe Benedict
Manuel L Quezon III.
Marge Francia
Mark Salvatus
Marvin Benaning
Maui Masungsong
Mavi Deocampo
Melissa Federis Trina
Michael Pante
Mideo Cruz
Monet Pura
Nadja Ginete
Neil Doloricon
Nex Benas
Niño D. Tagaro
Noah Maranan
Noe Tio
Noel Sales Barcelona
Norly Lalo
Patrick Bilog
Ramona Nieva
Norman Wilwayco
Dino Concepcion
Ricky de Guzman
Joseph Taylo
Jason Cuevas
Vic Facultad
Jan Sundiang
Jo Antinero
Luv Gaerlan Nogoy
Paul Puti-an
Jun Nogoy
Jeremy Nishimory
MArben Romero
David Abaya
Joey Valverde
Hendrick Gonzales
John Carpio
Boyet Miguel
Jeff Cabigao
Nitoy Adriano
Edwin Aguilar
Myra "Skarlet" Romer
Raquel de Loyola
Remedy Medina
Rene de Guzman
Resty S. Odon
Rg Concepcion
Rody Vera
Rogado Lui
Rorie R.Fajardo
Rosie Descalsote
Sherrizah Aiath B. Maclit
Sonny Africa
Sonny E. Fernandez
Susan Fernandez
Tetet Nera-Lauron
Tonyo Cruz